“I have fucked up.

My ex-boyfriend hit me, so I fled. This is what transpired. I cheated on him multiple times, but every time he finds out, he is gracious and makes an extra effort to make things right with me. But I turned that against him, calling him a coward, and constantly called him out for not having enough for me. I clearly recall one occasion when I cheated on him with my teacher. The teacher kept phoning while I was at his house since he had not seen me on campus but had done so. He was really clever; he knew the instructor's number and kept quiet while keeping a recorder in the room; when he returned, he had heard everything; still, I continued to lie, and he smacked me; I could see the agony in his eyes, but I was blinded by my intense love for this teacher. I told my friends about it, and they urged me to terminate the relationship since he is abusive and I deserve someone better. A few months ago, we got into another disagreement. He was attempting to explain to me how flirting with another guy could lead to infidelity, but I yelled at him that if I do, is it his body? and he smacked me again. Even though he was struggling and unemployed, he gave me practically everything and did his best for me. After that, I broke up with him, and the next day, I started dating the other man I had been flirting with. I recently phoned my ex and said, "We should talk." After he arrived at my house and I made an attempt to seduce him, he got up and said, "I know he's the type of guy he will never have sex with if he's not dating you." I was lying in bed naked, watching him leave without saying good-bye, and I felt very dumb. When he arrived, I looked through his phone and discovered that he doesn't make calls and that WhatsApp is gone. I'm not sure if my friends' advise was sound or not. Right now, my thoughts are racing. What do you guys think—is he abusive or have I lost a nice guy? - A distressed level 300 student cried.

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